This is the really real world! There ain't no coming back!

Well the last two weeks have been great. Me and Tracy are doing great together. I couldn't be happier. Things with us lately have been pretty intense. Like i said before she's moving in here so that'll be great. Right now she's gone out to Cupids to tie up some loose ends. She left yesterday and hopefully gets back on Tuesday. I'm really starting to miss her. This is the first time i haven't been able to see her in two weeks. It will bw nice to see her again soon.

Well i start work tomorow morning so i'm hoping that will go well. It will be the first work i've had now since the anxiety attacks have gone away. I'm just hoping that it won't be too stressfull. It should all be ok. I'm really looking forward to earning a paycheck again. It will be great.

Once we both save up some money me and Tracy are planning a special evening out. Maybe dinner out somewhere nice. Then maybe a movie. And maybe get a room somewhere :P Who knows... It's something we have to discuss when she gets back in town.

Went to dinner with the crowd last night. We went to the emerald palace. Me, Steve, Sarah, Abby, Karen, Harley, Nicole, Mark, and Daisy were there. Nicole offered to pay for my dinner so that was nice, and i will pay her back for it when my first check comes in. Then after that we all went to Steve's for a while. Nicole brought some nacho dip which was really good. Russ even showed up at some point which was nice.

Well thats it for now. See you all soon.

Fire it up! Fire it up!

Well folks it's been a most memorable week and a half. A job and a girl friend at the same time. Wow...

Ok just making a short update to the last post. As it turns out I won't be visiting Tracy on the weekends. Thats because she's moving into town in the next little while. So distance won't be a factor. She's having a rough time of it, so I offerd to do what i could. Our relationship has really blosomed. It seems as though we've been together for a few months rather than a week and a half. Oh yeah and jon and chuck, you guys will probably get a chance to meet her very soon. oh yeah btw she's 3 years older than me, which is nice.

Ok well thats all there is for now. Later folks.

A new begining is a very tumultuos time...

Well people haven't updated now in a little while. Have some big news to report.

First I'll start the new devewlopment in my career status. I had a job interview last week at teletech for a customer representative position, and after three hours of tests, interviewing and paperwork, I got the job! Well I start on the 11th so everyone wish me luck! I've got some foot work to do in the mean time but i'm looking forward to be working again. It's full time and it pays 8.50 an hour.

Well in other new Steve and sarah are having another child. Congrats you two!

Well ok people this one is a BIG surprise! Most people know about this already so i think this one mainly goes out to Kevin and Jon Dobbin. You ready for this guys? Make sure you're sitting down and your trays are in the upright postion... Ok so like I said on a previous post I joined a dating site on the web. Well i met someone from the site and we've dated a bit. Lately things have been starting to get serious. So what I'm saying is I've got a girlfriend now :) Her name is Tracy and I had her over to steve's tonight to meet everyone. Sorry to anyone who didn't meet her, she's leaving town on tuesday to go home to cupids. We will be keeping in touch all the time, and will see each other on the weekends. So far things are going great, and i see no problems in the forseeable future.

Also on the dating front, Mark is now seeing someone too.

Ok folks thats the big news, so wish me luck with everything. Peace out.

Day one... Gotta start somewhere...

Ok last night I got on this thing and went on a rant. As a result I was left mentally drained and forgot to post some stuf thats been going on in my life lately.

I'll start with this... Kevin left for jolly old england on monday. We will all miss you a great deal Kev. He returns here again for christmas so we're all looking forward. Friday a buch of us including Kev of course got out to the park to fly kites. It was my first time flying a kite in like two years. Kev was waiting all vacation to fly kites. It was a great day and I was glad to squeeze it into my busy schedule that day. Afterwards we all went to Italian Pizza Market for supper. Kev had a party that night so i went to steve's later by myself. I think we had a movie lotto that night and one of my picks won. Or was that saturday night. Doesn't matter. The whole weekend was great.

Well a week before monday I signed up to a free online dating site. Within the first few days I had some positive responses. My first response i got one night from a 35 year old divorced mother of two who happens to be a nurse. We've chatted a bit on msn and that was that. The next day after i recieved that message i briefly chated with a 33 year old from cupids. We were suposed to meet this week for coffee, but have had no luck getting a hold of each other. I'm still holding my breath on this one. The next day after i met her online one of the ones i messaged myself replied and we were suposed to chat on msn, but that hasn't materialized yet. Well that's about all the luck I've had with it so far. This week has been real slow on the site.

In more recent news I had a job at SubWay. I think I nailed the interview, but the manager said he had a lot of interviews to do yet and wouldn't be finished with it till late next week. Plus the fact that he never wrote down any of the answers i gave to his questions leads me to believe he wasn't seriously considering me for the position. But who knows, I might get called back in for a second interview. That would be awesome.

Well thats the knd of time it's been around here lately. Catch you all real soon.

Listening to: Mixed anime cd, MegaDeth - Rust in Peace
Watching: Firefly (real soon hopefully, maybe tonite)
Reading: nothing though i should pick up the old A+ certification guide again soon.
Eating: tacos and left over pizza

Eleven weeks, two days...

Well today started good and well for the most part. I got up and got ready, then went to the doctors office to pick up my meds. Got home and went for a drive with mom. Had supper, went out for a bit, and then went to a work out with the bro. About 8 minutes before I left it hit... The first anxiety attack I've had in over eleven weeks. It wasn't bad but it was definately an attack. I'm not really that upset about it. It wasn't really a big deal. Not like the ones I used to have at all. In the last eleven and a bit weeks I have had momentary jitters that would last for 2 or 3 minutes, but this time it was definately an attack. I said to myself "this is never going to rule my life again!" And it won't. I plan on doing everything in my power to make sure this never gets in my way again. I see my doctor in a couple of days so I'm going to let him know about it. If necasary I'll just get my meds adjusted again. But if it's not that then it won't disrupt my life again because i determined to not let it. It looks like I may have a job interview soon so I plan on carying on nothing has changed. Cause the second I acknowledge that it's a problem is the second it does become problem. It was only minor this time so I'm ready for it if it happens again, no matter what the situation is. Hopefully it will be another eleven weeks till then.

Well thats all I have to say on this fine night. Catch you all later.

Life goes on...

Well the big day was saturday. Thats when Steve and Sarah got maried. What a great day!! It started out raining, but stopped a few minutes before we left for the church. Steve, me, russ, chuck, kevin , and jon met up during the afternoon to get dressed. We all then headed to the church. Me, chuck, kevin, and jon ushered the guests in. It was a beuatiful cerimony and I noticed there was a few people on the verge of tears. Joe (kevin's brother) was the photographer. On the way to the reception me and russ stoped for pizza. The dinner at the reception was great. The toasts and speeches went off without a hitch. It was a great party. I even got up to dance a few times, which is saying something. Congrats Steve and Sarah!

Well things are going great for me right now. I go job hunting tomorow. The anxiety is going really well. I haven't had an attack in over ten weeks. I see my doctor soon.

Steve recently picked up a 50 inch lcd tv. And boy do the video games look great on it!

Listening to: mixed anime cd, tea party - edges of twilight, megadeth - the world needs a hero
Reading: A+ certification guide
Playing: bit of this, bit of that

Not a lot else to say this time. See you all around.

Sunday night was the bomb!

So sunday night we had Steve's stag party. It was a blast! A few of us met up at Steve's at around 7:30. Then we met the rest of the b'ys later at the pool hall. We all had a good time. Everyone was there. So Jon Dobbin, Jon Mercer, Mooch, Russ, Kevin, Mark, Chuck and me were there. After pool we all headed back to Steve's for drinks and stuf. Steve was really messed up. I don't even want to think about how much booze he had! it was ridiculous! Well a good time was had by all. We're all looking forward to the wedding. Congrats Steve and Sarah!

A short one this time. Later people.