Ok I know you're all probably getting fed up reading this thing almost every day now. Oh well... I guess this means my monthly record of posts keeps growing as I post more and more this month.
I did get some more work done on the book. It is now nearing page three. I know I know... Thats nothing but i don't get much time these days at all. And the only time i have any inspiration is when i should be sleeping, so I don't know if progress on it will ever go fast. So far I have the first seven or so chapters plotted out. I also have alot of ideas for the midle of the book. And of course I do know what is going to happen in the conclusion to the story. And no you will have to wait to read it to find out all the details aside from what I post here on it. I think it will be an exciting story filled a fair amount of action, good character developement, and maybe even a couple of interesting twists but nothing like those crappy suspense thriller movies that have been popular over recent years, like that m. night shamalan CRAP. I hope that I can make the characters and the setting appealing enough to hook the reader. Well i will be asking people for opinions once the first chapter is writen. I look forward to that.
Frustration abounds these days as things seem to build one anoying thing after another. Just don't know how to handle it all these days. It seems that ever since early this spring i got a fresh start on life. Literaly. It's like I've been learning to live life all over again one agonizing lesson after another. I just wish I could have one moment where there was not something detracting from the hapiness of the moment. I guess life is all about learning to deal with all the minor anoyances, and learning to forget the major ones. It's kinda like my life really started at age 30 not age 0 months. I don't know if anyone can relate with this but I'm frustrated with things because a lot of people mostly family expect me to go on being the person i was up till last winter, and I wish to never be that person again. I am so much more now than what I was. At least I think so. I don't want to go back to being that person again. I just don't want to... I REFUSE to. I'm not saying I've totally changed into something that people won't recognize or not care about anymore. I like to think the important parts of me haven't changed, but i would also like to think that the things that have changed are important too. I really do think I'm more successfull at life than i used be. And as i learn more about life every day I hope to prove it soon.
My life is not wory free of course, and is far from stress free. I just want a fair crack at a decent career and a comfortable life. Too many things are in the way of that right now. So untill i learn to deal with those things, I'm stuck here beating my head against the wall. Maybe the problem is I'm a new person trying to live in an old life. Maybe what i need is a new direction in life. I know i have the start of that now but it is only the tip of the ice berg. What i really need is a radical change in direction in my life. Don't get me wrong I will never give up what is important to me. Truely important that is. You all know what I mean.
Well i've wandered down the garden trail a little bit this time but i just needed to vent a bit. So there you go. Happy holidays to all and talk to you all soon.
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